Lets just, escape to the moon.

So, yesterday's talent show was wayy more than what I expected, and probably everyone else too.
All the performers were great, kudos for them! I don't even think I would have the guts and balls to go up there and do something -_- I know I know, WHIMPPPP. Overall, it was filled with laughter and joy ;D

SCHOOL SCHOOL SCHOOL! Who gets shitload of homework on the weekend? I really hate it, yes, I HATE it. Its a weekend, i mean, C"MONNNNNNNN! but if it'll get me the grade I want, I'll do whatever it takes to make my parents proud again. As of right now, I'm working on it, lagging at some points, but better than before. This means so much to me, this is something I need to pursue.

Organization.
IM SLACKIN'. simple as that, where on earth did my neatness and organized self go? I need to make time and organize myself. For instance, my room.. Its worser than a jungle here. Recently, my dad said I should be ashamed of myself, because in our culture/tradition, girls are suppose to be neat & organized. I am the total opposite. But its not just that, Im speaking of being organized in life, in MY life. Made me thinnk about it for a bit, I believe, its time I get with it & start doing what I have to do. afterall, I AM getting older.

& Life in general.
lately, i've been just smooth. Everyday is just like every other day. It could be better, but theres nothing I can do. Although, I hope it gets better. I just want to go lay on the beach, watch the sunset that never has an ending.

I wish I coulda done this earlier...

So, its a new year, 09 ;D

I should of started to blog up on new years, but i've failed to do that, obviously.
here something that I wanted to do at the beginning of this year; Take a picture every-
single day, and by the end of the year, I wanted to compare and see how much i've changed.
People say I changed so much within the years, but i never actually agreed. I thought i was the same, I didn't really notice anything. So i thought this was going to actually set me straight & see for myself of how much I've changed.
-I'm going to start Feb. 1st since I couldn't do it on jan 1st -_-

Well, I found out what my grades were for semesters, and yet I was sooooooooooooooo dissapointed in myself. My UC berk. dreams are all gone now =( I'm so determined, and im so focused, I'll promise myself that i'll do whatever it'll take to get a 4.0 , I've failed. BADLY.

Starting 3rd quarter, I really can't afford to do all of this.. even though thats what i said in the beggining of the year, im so serious. "I promise I'll hit that shit homerun and make my parents proud" I can't mess it up... I'm focused. And this quarter, I will succeed. and mostly, I will make my parents happy. Faith & Believin'.

So cross softball out, it's badminton time =) I really wish I could do both, but I had to chose one. Badminton it is. I hope its gunna be fun =) and I can build my skills from there and play throughout my years of highschool.

I just want to make it through, happily & successfullyyyyy.