& just trying, failed.

Yesterday, I went to the mall.

I got an outfit, and bought other stuff.

I got a headband from forever 21, i got two :) and its cute.  

Its looks like two headbands put together, ouuu. 

after, we took the bus home, and we happened to walk past the. park. Why do i see you unexpectedely? So we walked around the park and just sat on the bench. left after like 10 minutes, and decided to go back home and change up. Indaca left, so me and bev decided to get a burrito.

Yum, it was better than the day before. 

After, me and bev hit up the park. 

Hmmmm... more people were there now... & you were too. I wanted to go on the swing, so me and bev left to the other side of the park. my butt hurted, so i went to go sit down.

I might sound so stupid right now, but i wanted to settle things out. I wanted to settle it ALL out before i left home.. you said you wanted to be friends, but how are we gunna be friends when you try to avoid me? not literally, but the way you act.

I might have fucked up at the park yesterday.. from the skater guy.. the marrying thing, and all the little shit that i supposibly did. and i did feel bad for it, because looking at it as a bigger picture, i would have felt and thought the same thing you did.. I was trying to keep a smile on my face as much as possible... and i did do that.. so is that why you acted like an ass on aim that night? because you thought i didn't care, by the way i acted? false ass shit. 

I asked, are you willing to compromise, and i get a fucking i gotta go. Wtfuck is that shit? Im STILL trying after everything.. 

I need to get my mind off things big time.. I'm letting this get to me too much.. and i dont know why i am.. i really dont fucking know.. I shouldn't be letting it get to me at all.. Your grandma was at my cousins house, talking with my grandma. and she says " One thing i really adore about your granddaughter, is that she can speak lao, and my husband, thinks she's part white" hahaha Oh gee, Your grandma is crackin btw. & she loves me (= 

Later that i night, I vented out to ryan and matt. Unsurprisngly, they reacted the same way. You guys helped me a lot... and you guys are right. about everything. Thank you for looking out for me.. you guys are like my backbone (= 

"I'm gunna be his karma"- Matt. 

^ fag. but we're niggas for life. hahah UGLIES FOR LIFE mothafucka. Freshman year, til. 

Anyway, I hope my day goes by good, unlike these past two days. Other than that...

I need to learn how to not care.