OH today.

Today, oh today.

I woke up late.
My aunt picked me up to come to santa rosa.
cousins came a long, chilled at my house and shit.
I did some fast packing, and i left.
Headed to pinole, ate, and left to santa rosa.

I felt sick on my way entering santa rosa.
My stomach dropped, my heart dropped.

I got here, chilling in the front of the house, until i saw someone unexpectedly drive by.
My aunt though... she busted me out, in front of my GRANDMA.

Went to the park, people were there.
Saw a skater guy, but i swear i didn't do anything.
ALL INDACA, who got his number, not me, i was just there to be there.
THE BENCH, yes, i crossed out my name and yours. I had to do it. Im sorry.
and i wrote over it saying, FUCK YOU, I LOVE BECKY.
hahaha... oops.

Came home.
got on aim...
and thats when things went down.
YOU really dont care huh?
you said you did. you said you'll never hurt me.
GO AHEAD? no, im not gunna be a hoe like that.
saying i should be mature? i AM MATURE.
assuming that i straight up didn't want to be friends?
Never said that, GIVE ME SOME TIME.
its hard to be friends, after all this shit.... don't you understand?
DONT ANYONE UNDERSTAND?
No one will ever.

I still care, i can't lie.
But i dont know... you make yourself seem like you don't anymore, even though you said you will.
I think i'll be the bigger person, and clear things up, tomorrow. when i see you.

its 1:30 am. and i can't get it off my mind.

it ruins my day.
I had my first REAL MEAL today.. first time I ate a real fucking meal.
be proud, because these damn days, i have no type of appetite.


goodnight.
I'll be home... lord knows.

Santa rosa though.

-td.